When everything's said and done, I have to thank you. Sure, you completely screwed me over. But, you also showed me I'm strong enough to get through even the worst heart ache.  When the waves are floading the shore and I can't find my way home anymore , that's when I look at you.  Never ignore a person who loves you, cares for you and misses you. Because one day, you might wake from your sleep and realize that you lost the moon while counting the stars.  There is a difference in what we long for, what we settle for, and who we are meant for.  You know that quote that says forget the people who are in the past because there is a reason they didn't make it to your future?.. Yeah, well what happens in the future when those people come back?  The only difference between friends & enemies is you know who your enemies are. 
And sometimes it feels like I'm the only fucking person on the face of the earth that doesn't know how to drop their feelings for someone on a dime. It seems like everybody I've ever met has fallen for someone that didn't feel the same, and then gone 'oh, oh well, I like someone else now'. What the hell makes me different, and some how inept at just not giving a shit? 
People say I'm a bad infleunce, I say the world is already fucked, I'm just adding to it. 
Sometimes I wonder if maybe we'll ever get back together, and then I realize that we'll never really be over, in a way it hasn't changed, but in some ways, it has, its not that we aren't meant for each other, I think its just maybe we aren't ready for forever. 
Rumors? Oh well, atleast your spreading something other than your legs. 
I guess the reason I think I'm nothing is because no one's ever fought for me. I believe if I was truly worth it, that somewhere along this road, someone would've fought for me to stay, but instead, I always wound up walking away. 
Instead of thinking about what you're missing, think about what you have that everyone else is missing. 
Sometimes I think that you’re not the person that I thought you were. Like you’re just like every other guy that’s broken my heart. And that’s really disappointing. 
I don't need some elaborate apology. I don't need you to play me our song in front of all our friends or just me. I don't need you to wait outside my class with a dozen roses. I just need you to tell me simply that you're fucking sorry and that you need me as much as I need you. 
Some people make your life better by walking into it, some people make your life better by walking out. 
It's time to grow up. You can have enemies but don't spend your time on them. Spend it on your friends. Shit happens, get over it. Just don't give a fuck and your life will be a lot easier.
 It's hard to be the one always waiting. I mean, there's something to be said for the hero who charges off to battle, but when you get right down to it, there's a whole story in who's left behind. 
Sometimes we have to be broken down to be rebuilt into what we are actually meant to be. 
It's been a month since we've actually had a real conversation. It's been weeks since you last called. It's been days since I've seen your face. What we had seems like it's been forgotten & replaced. It seems like it was a one time deal, like I only had one chance with you, and that once chance has been screwed up. I didn't mean to.. I let you go, I'll admit that. But I thought you'd care enough to come back. You always made me smile, but a smile isn't forever. 
Sometimes it seems safer to hold it all in, where the only person who can judge is yourself. 
You don't "think" you were in love. If you were in love with someone, truly in love, you will know without a single fucking doubt in your mind. Because it changes you. It consumes you. Trust me, if you were in love with someone, you couldn't dare question it. |